Thursday, February 10, 2005

a new change for myself...

haiz... i guess i better have a new change for myself...better concentrate on my studies den believin that true love exists....cause i will never find mine...haiz....i myself know that i am not handsome....and my expectations for that speical someone is high...haha it is jus impossible....who wants a guy that cant speaks well...not handsome....poor....ugly.(repeated)...nowadays all the pretty girl or jus the normal and average gals will all go for looks or money...first impression ma...if u are ugly... why would the gal be interested in you at all...without knowin your character first...those gals that said that they will look for a guy's character rather than the looks...haha stop bluffin yourself cause u know right down in your heart it is not true...it is jus human that we would wan to get something better...haiz...all the shuai ge out there... good for you....happy rite? that hey you get all the gals....den can slowly choose which one to date or go out?....guys like me can only dream of wat you hav....waitin by the handphone for a single sms a day is like findin a needle in a haystack....while all the shuai ge...gets sms-es all day long...from gals findin them to chat....haiz...maybe GOD was sleepin or slackin off when he send me down to earth...all i can say is FUk you...haha thats the only thing i can do now...to blame god...but...

i decided that i hav to change too......anyway...now wat i decided to do:

1) focus on my industrial design course...mus do the best i can...hope that i can get a degree oversea ( germany or france or italy or britain)....haiz
form the best in my sch for D & T...to like the average i the class now....wat a morale hit....="(

2) be single...YES try to be single as possible ..dun wan to let the problem of relationship to confuse or harm me anymore...wat do is it anyway when u know soon or later u are gonna get your poor heart broken again?

3) mind my own business as much as possible....haiz quite hard to do...cause i hav this ability to understand or know wat this person is thinkin or be through...and all that stuff...haha den wan to help...cause more trouble for myself...

4) jus go with the flow... try not to make anymore friends or any convesation with them...haiz...i guess i better stop botherin them with my lameness or crap or bull shit...

5)try to make myself more presentable for myself and myself only....

hmm guess thats about it...haiz a bad year for the rabbit...try to keep a low profile....

anyway to all people out there....everything or every action or word or sound that you made...i know about it and i will remember it...with that information and the rest of the information that i had...i can combine them and hav a conclusion about you and all....you can said that it is a waste of time but...to me it is jus natural...

so if u see me silent in a corner or like jus being a loner and all...haha i am actually listenin to every damn word that escape your mouth....oopss jus let out my serect..hehe

JooL at 11:26 PM

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