Tuesday, September 21, 2004

my thoughts...

jus off frm my head

the more i like someone, the more i wan them to hate me
cause ......it is hard to explain..but it is just that i dun feel that i deserved to be loved
and that i was sent here to help ppl in their problems,
but for me,
i jus hav to sovle them by myself.

i hav not experience love be4 in my life and i will nvr be.

the funny feelin that i felt in me when i meet someone i like...the shyness, the increased beatin of the heart, the feelin that u wan to be wif them forever, the emptiness feelin that u felt.....it is really wat love is.....or is it really wat love is.....or just a normal human reaction....or it is jus sexual...that u wan to hav sex wif them....and jus that......wat is it?

the ones that i liked so much are all out there but i am scared to make the first move....

the sight of them makes me speechless...it is totally diffrent from tokin on the net...where u cant see the person face to face.....there is no real connection..........chemisty?

i fated not to be loved......fated to die alone.......fated to suffer terrible emotional pain....

is there really someone out there who can understand me?

is there really someone who would love me?

i dun think so.

NEVER can be and will be.

JooL at 2:07 AM

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